just a dvd from a shelf
sometimes when you watch a motion picture.. you get really emotionally involved and you feel really really bad about these fictional people on the screen. they are not actually feeling that pain but you do. (maybe inside your head they do too)
but what if you get into something like the things you see in these films… what if it’s you who is so fucked up, what if it’s your life that’s falling apart? then you find a true meaning of feeling sorry. feeling sorry for your fuckin self is something most of us are better at than just feeling sorry for fictitious persons.
when you’re helpless, you start constantly swearing. when you’re helpless you start smoking and working. and nothing (you hear me?! nothing!) gives you any permanent satisfaction. just temporary reliefs, from time to time, a dope or two. it’s not solving anything. it’s just prolonging the process of living. if i wasn’t real, if i was just a movie character, i bet many would fucking cry their asses off feeling so so sorry for me. but it’s the other way around, and i’m real and they’re not. so shall they be rewarded with a happyend? not necessarily. and the right word to put on the box is drama.
two films, lots of music
british cinematography is sometimes truly profound. Read the rest of this entry »

